the following is like my diary
I perfectly quit playing chess
I played chess for a long time and my elo is like 1800
but I gave up on chess completely thus
it is like all my chess skills are lost in vain
because I have to move around my eyes intensively and fast
a lot while playing chess
the eyesight becomes so bad quickly,
I quit playing

but I still run the engine matches because
engines are like new toys or new movies
when they first come out
ppl play with them fervently at the beginning but
if they are not good
ppl quickly lose interest in using them
anyway the conclusion is

I stopped playing chess with my eyes and my brain
but I still play chess indirectly only sometimes
(let the engines play)